Maintenance

Due to some food posioning picked up in the last couple of days, and my fitted trousers fitting looser than they were last week at 12st 6lbs, I am now OFFICIALLY in maintenance.

It's not about weight it's all about size.

Sooooo, for the next year my aim is to go between my uk size 12's and size 14's (alot of which I need a belt for) - my weight range is to not go below 12stone and not go over 12st 7lbs - Making a 4 and half to 5 stone weight loss - so say if I have a bad week and I may be in 14's thats fine, then say I have some good months and in 12's that fine too!

So that's me and deliberatly losing weight over for now - what will I do with myself?

I'm am happy with what I lost, a whole new shopping experience has opened up to me - I know if I dress up I can feel the bees knees wth myself and not have any thoughts at all that I dont look anything other than normal sized, I got too used to slobbing out in baggy stuff that I wasn't really appreciating myself and was still hiding away!

When I bought the size 14 fitted pants I thought there might have been a chance they wouldn't fit as they looked a bit on the small size to me, even my hubby said I should try them on before I buy as they look too small, but when I put them on on the friday to try and they fit with a bit room to spare I was shocked, then on tuesday they were a bit slacker again I was doubly shocked with them being fitted!
I think with jeans you can kind of squeeze and stretch them a bit, not much, but you can shimmy in, and you cant with trousers.

For the past month I have not been dieting really, I've had odd days of being good but for the most part I've been tucking what seems alot to me now away, some days as much as 3,000 calories, other days around 1,500, very few under that if any.
So I'm just going to carry on enjoying my fish and eggs (but not as often as going off them a bit!), my daily choccy, my protein shakes now and again, and my salads, fruit and veg, olive oil, my splenda and skimmed milk - have also been having quite a bit of bread lately too, but i want to knock that on the head a bit and my diet cola.

How I'll stay on the straight and narrow.
I can't eat alot everyday, I can some days though!
Like mountains it seems!
But I don't have the constitution for it everyday like I probably once had - I've got some things that happen now that I never had at my heaviest, like when I've eaten too much I SEE IT! I used to feel bloated but never saw it physically before, and I don't like it!

Obviously my clothes, I've nothing over a 14 so I cant get past that size as I cant afford a whole new wardrobe again!

A biggy is my cola, I cant drink full sugar cola in large amounts anymore, so I'm saving 1,000 cals there before I even start on food.

The fact I've kind of shouted my weight loss off the roof tops to people - got to save face now so cant go back to how I was!

A year already of basic maintaining (bar my december freak out!) showed me whatever I might put on, I am determined to stick it out and lose it again, and I only put on with the intent of putting weight on in the first place - such is life I'm bargaining!

YES, I am NORMAL sized, and know in my heart that this is where I need to be, no where else, I'm my proper natural size now. And after being called every fatty name under the sun in the past (fatty, fatso, free willy, hefer, whale, etc etc), feeling sometimes like I didnt even deserve to be on this planet, having close family revel in my fatness, all I can say now is:

UP YOURS MATIES, LOOK AT ME NOW I'm gorgeous!!