April 2013

Another year and another attempt!
Since my last update a year ago my weight has gone up and down again, more up than down though I am afraid!
I have not had a good year, life is not easy at all... I do a lot of comfort eating... chocolate actually is my only friend, along with cheese toasties!
It never lets me down and is non threatening.
It's there at the end of the day once my daughter has gone to bed and spends the evenings keeping me company, I am loathe to say goodbye, but alas I am fatter than ever at 18st 11lbs - 6st 11lbs heavier than my target weight, so I have to knock it on the head and not have ''as much''.
So... here I am, in my 40's with a toddler and so close to being morbidly obese if I dont reign it in now.
One other thing, I havnt had a period since mid January, so not sure where I am with all that and regarding bloat and hormones!
My daughter starts school next year and no way do I want to be the fattest mum at the school gates. To lose what I want to lose I have to start now, there's no chances left to wait really !
So to recap in bold I am 18st 11lbs, that is a heafty weight! Far heavier than heavy weight boxers in fact! It's not a weight or BMI to ignore, I know that, I need a lightbulb moment to really knock sense into me. Even my daughters dad name calling me a fat cow tonight isnt even enough cos who cares what he thinks right?
Anyhoo, putting the writing on the wall :
statistics!
I know my waist is 45''
can't find my tape measure though, typical!
Oh well, we'll just go by waist then, the rest will follow suit I am sure!