2014 ... here we go again!

Well, I wasn't ever going to post back on my blog as it just wasn't working to inspire me anymore ... nothing is! But, something happened that I thought never would ... I reached 20 stone :( Thats 280lbs to those who work in lbs.
That is one whole stone heavier than I was at 9 months pregnant, and 8 stone heavier than when I lost all that weight before.
I feel a bit ashamed really, but at the end of the day I am still me... I am me at 12 stone... me at 15 stone... and me at *gulp* 20 stone! .....I'm just me!
My daughter is 4 now and the time has totally flown, I have not had a minute to myself  but it's all good, she's a little star :)

So.... where I am now at is I WANT to lose weight, I recently found my big bum is barely fitting in chairs with sides now... that's not a good sign lol. My daughter is also now commenting on my big bum and that I am bigger than other people, although she doesn't seem horrified by that or anything!

I've had a bit of a change of style, I was always erring towards the hippy look so I recently dreaded my hair and started wearing hippy clothes and have a found a love of kaftans! I will wear them even when slim again! So not only am I BIG I am also standing out by my looks which is rather brave.

So, wish me luck... this year I hope to lose between 4 and 6 stone.

Weigh in 1 - 1st january - 20 stone (180lbs) BMI 43.8